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E=gc2

Time is an illusion. We’ve been told this, but I'll explain. Our brain works in points of conscience, like a frame-rate for a movie (this is determined by the speed at which our brain processes input).

 

A common question relevant to time is, "why doesn't time just suddenly go the other way and make everything that happens unhappen, and why doesn't it run fast forward so we can see what's gonna happen next..!

 

The answer is, every particle is following a set of rules.... Our brain witnesses this as input and creates a sense of time. In truth, time doesn't exist --- only particles following rules --- do.

(This stuff may not be scientifically proven but is a very well thought out theory of mine.)

 

Einstein's formula, which describes the relationship between energy (E), mass (m) and the speed of light (c), derives from his special theory of relativity. This theory proposes that time and space are relative - how we measure time and space depends on our state of motion relative to other observers.

 

Eintein's formula: E=mc2

 

At a certain time I found myself trying to devise an equation to relate my life to god’s plan for me – to be or not to be. Would it solve itself or would I have to wait eventually for time to reveal what God has in store for me…

 

I have always been an open book to friends who know me... 

 

my philosophy about marriage... perhaps people will call me stupid... but let me write what i feel...with due honesty...

 

if someone commits a murder, he might be sent to jail for life...and with a good behavior he could be released in as early as five to ten years... marriage, however is a life sentence without hope of parole... it is said “till death do us part”...

have you ever thought about marriage commitments? sharing your life, bed, bathroom, daily habits, listening to repeated silly complains, headaches, taking care of kids, taking them to the dentist, clinic, school and outdoors... they say it is life...i find it funny (sometimes when i think of it)... I wonder...what can a married woman, the wife (the weaker vessel as they say) do?

 

Will she be able to take the burden of the marriage herself?... You see, for women, marriage is just a magic word – the beautiful white dress, a large buffet, the smell of roses... fancy clothes... and the wedding cake.... such a beautiful dream...but I look at it differently... i am more worried beyond the D-day and the wedding night...

 

there are fears in my mind about marriage... will she be strong enough?..(i always see her as a ‘delicate darling’)... or will she be selfish... or just stupid.... most girls, i’ve noted, have shallow brains... not a tinge of humor nor intelligence nor common sense...

 

it may not be from a man’s side, but the wife may be responsible for the success / failure of the marriage and in our Goan culture, divorce is not a goal to seek... it can be a hard choice for ending a serious commitment...- a lot of courage and sacrifices... many tears will be shed... but sometimes divorce is a better choice in the long run rather than just ‘existing’ which is not something healthy or enjoyable.... you live for others or for yourselves…? 

my question has been, where would i find a girl who is going to be -- understanding, simple, intelligent, and who has a healthy sense of humor?... perhaps no one can find..? – coz it’s impossible for Christian men to marry four women at a time... i may have to settle for humor or someone who is equal with my attitudes.

 

well, i just cannot sit with people who don’t have common sense or humor... i feel like banging my head if someone (when you eat your food) will ask, “are you eating?”


... if they can see very well that i am eating, why ask?.. same question if you’re having a shower, “are you having bath?”

yet another question, “are you sleeping?”...  now, this question racks my brain as i hear friends who call up late on the cell and ask that question.... how could a person asleep answer a question like this?...

 

these are only examples of stupid questions...i really don’t mind these kinda questions ...but there are serious comments...and i feel irritated to hear such remarks... and the truth is i havn’t come across many girls / women who can talk sense...

 

and top of everything, the wife expects a lot from the man... how can one know their wives’ level of expectations?.. what if the man falls short?...  wives, esp. modern wives look for freedom without bothering much about their contribution in building up the family... i’ve seen men – married in haste (possibly with their wives’ sex appeal or riches ) – who repent later... they admit their choice was bad....and now they can’t bear with their wives any more.....

 

my wish is that i marry someone who will be able to communicate and understand me with the same ability, shared interest, views, true love (as much as she loves herself), mature attitude and thinking and sincere communication....as i always feel these qualities in the spouse will help in life... ‘coz what is outside – face, beauty, money, styles, riches -  can vanish but the in-built qualities will last till old age.... Ofourse, this is what i feel... A girl's views might be, being a girl, more influenced by her parents' expectations...or... I wouldn't know that...

 

But now I know...

 

Only an angel with a heart of gold would talk about these things before I could even think of sharing my views, and pledge to be my soulmate -- without comparing my life, her life, our life to others.

 

I thank God for that angel -- and a rose in my world, whom I seem to have adored in infinite times...in life after life...age after age...forever...

 

-gasper crasto

  27.06.2006